penghujung 2012 :')

assalamualaikum cintaku semuanya :)
perghh. haha. "perghh" tu trademark baru tu ;) comel ka comel? please laa cakap comel sangat trademark aku tu :') elehh. annoyed la tu kan? ada aku kesah? HAHA.
i really wanted to modify this blog but the fact that i am too lazy, so the hell with that :p

so 2012 uhh?
21 Dec kononnya kiamat. 23, 24, 25 kononnya gelap. so apakahh?
the thing is, semua tu Allah yg tentukan. pandai2 jakkk mau cakap 21 Dec 2012 kiamat. tu laa percaya sangat la kamu. now it's a JOKE! HAHA. movie yg 2012 tu pun rated as comedy sudahhh. wahaha. comedy nda comedy, menangis juga giaa aku tengok movie tu. damn it :'D

so back to the topic. 2012? aku pun don't quite remember apa yg terjadi dalam hidup aku 2012 ni. yang pasti, 2012 ni paling best la rasanyaa selama aku hidup as teenager ni. HAHA teenager ka umur 20? ada aku kesahhh? :D so yeahh. 2012 ni la tahun aku merasa handphone Blackberry, iPhone 4s, Samsung s2, Galaxy Note 2. tukar handphone jak kerja aku kan? haha. aku in shaa Allah, setia dengan Note 2 untuk tahun ni. haha. aku nda boleh janji aku nda ganti handphone dalam masa 7 bulan. HAHA.

so let's make a list apa yg aku ingat dalam 2012 ni:

• si Ridhwan Fitri PLKN, and dapat result SPM dia tahun ni.
• aku study d Unisel.
• wedding abg Ciki with kak Aisah, which aku nda datang sebab aku ada class. damn.
• wedding cousin sebelah mama, si Awa and her husband Ijal. kami pegi Nilai & Melaka. wheww! naik Menara Taming Sari. nampak ba bandar Melaka tu woohoo!
• banyak movies yg aku tengok. Step Up 4 anddddd Twilight: Breaking Dawn Part 2. stop saying that movie is gay. just stop :') sebab lagu A Thousand Years tu sangat melekat di hati, for now.

tu jak yg aku ingat. seriously aku nda ingat lagi anything else buat masa ni. HAHA otak blurry. but yang pastiiii, memang aku banyak mental breakdown and heartbroken la tahun ni and that make this year is an awesome year sebab banyak benda yg aku pelajari. perghh ayat skema siottt. but yes, memang banyak.
i've learnt that NOTHING LASTS FOREVER, NOTHING STAYS THAT WAY FOREVER. PEOPLE CHANGE. HEARTS CHANGE. FEELINGS CHANGE. EVERYTHING CHANGE.
i've learnt that promises are always meant to be broken. HEARTS are meant to be broken. FEELINGS are meant to be played with.
basically, 2012 is not a good year for my relationship. but thanks to 2012, i've grown stronger than before. no more lying down crying shits and stuff. HAHA. because bitch, i ain't got time fo dat!
i mean, i did cried, a lot. but you know, people cry. i am a human, i have feelings? HAHA.

kalau dada aku ni boleh belah and tunjuk hati aku ni, confirm kamu kesian tengok hati aku banyak luka2 yg sudah dijahit tapi jahitannya sangat rapuh and boleh terbuka any time. bahaya kan? aku sendiri pun takut. i'm scared to love. because everybody's gotta die someday :/
i don't even want to know what it's like to lose someone that i love. i can't bear to lose someone i love so much. especially my dad & mum.

this year, i've wasted so much tears on HIM. you know that good-looking guy, that crazy guy who has a cute cheeks and extremely adorable smile and such a lovely brown eyes that when you look straight into his eyes that you can fall deeply in love with him, knowing that he won't love you the way you love him? knowing that you've sacrificed so many things on him and not asking for him to repay you with stuffs or money, just love? that guy? oh yes. i've wasted so many. tears, energy, strength to hold on, strength to live.

but you know what? shits gonna change. because damn i have to be strong and i am strong ;)

so so so so so. mau cerita pasal yesterday and today :)
two of the most beautiful days i've had this year. hangout with RAF ( Ridhwan Anmyra Fitri) jalan d CP. woohoo! pastu malamnyaaa pula dinner with his family d rumah pengetua. weehee! and bermalam di situ. punya awesomely best :) sebab ketawaaa jak tengok gelagat mami, ayah, icah and RAF. HAPPY FAMILY.
kami semua tidur d ruang tamu. wahaha. aku and RAF tidur around 4 am tu. si RAF tidur2 ayam walaupun ada bunyi "motorboat" semalam. HAHA. dia tidur, aku kacau2 muka dia. cute ba dia tidur, macam mau cucuk2 guna pisau. HAHA geram sangat ba.
mami lagi tidur dengan si patung kesayangan. haha besar ba teddy tu daripada mami xD
ayah pun tidur2 ayam. takut ba tu sebab banyak kes kecurian area situ.
icah lagi cuteeee time tidur. muka serious pun tatap comel :3

aku? nahh asal ada bunyi, aku kasi gerak si RAF; "bang bang, apa tu?" haha ulang2 jak ayat tu sepanjang nda tidur. takut ba giaaaa. macam2 sia dengar. malas la mau kasitau :p haha biarlah rahsiaaaa.

wah macam panjang pula post ni kan? nampak sangat lama memendam perasaan xD
so that's it for now ;)
bubye and Happy New Year :) semoga 2013 menjadi tahun yg baik untuk kita semua. semoga rezeki semua bertambah, umur panjang. amiin :)

p/s: memang bulan December 2012 memang aku suka. bilaaa la dapat bermalam lagi satu family macam semalam :') seriously best :)

Anmyra Creativity! xxoo